If it were my family, I would just say the following: Look, that's how he feels and this is why (enter anxiety and awkward situations here.) You are always welcome to visit and if money is an issue, we can help with what we can for you to get a hotel. Or you can just come for a day trip. I apologize but after several visits, we've found this to be the best solution for everyone to make it a happy visit.
Please don't make me feel stupid for asking something from you. Please don't make me the bad guy for asking to have my feelings put into consideration. Please don't make me doubt my self-worth. Please, just don't make me have to say, "please."
I gave up what makes me "me" for what I believed was worth it. I don't deserve the respect I thought I did. So then maybe I should get back "me" and get happiness my own way.
Sometimes I feel like I'm broken. Like I'm never good enough. I don't want to end up like my mother. Feeling alone, heart-broken and trying to hold on to anything. But sometimes it seems like that's where I'm headed. Sometimes it's better to just smile and pretend everything is okay. Pretend I'm happy all the fucking time. Because when anything hurts, it's my fault. I overreacted. I'm selfish. Right at this very second: I am my mother's daughter.
Like Icarus, I too failed Happiness and love seemed all too real I believed it to be pure A Disney-worthy love story But, alas, like Icarus I, too, failed It's easy to say: I love you To believe the two are enough But there's always a-lacking A judgement arising and no Its never just you The ripple effect goes beyond a couple You're never alone again Even the most intimate moments must be approved By the behind-the-scene crew you each carry It was easy to fall in love With a beauty beyond any I've seen A voice without a match and eyes that bring a smile But alas! Just like our dear Icarus Deluded by what seemed so real I, too, have failed
Is it real this time? I'm doubting every touch, every smile Are we playing house? As a test Did I fail? Are we just wasting time? Too lazy to start over so we're just letting this go on and on. Do you need a break? Another 10 minutes or so? Will my heart shatter again? Will I wish to never wake as I lie on my bed? Will my skin burn even on the coldest day? How long will I live in fear of hearing such horrid words "I don't love you as much as I used to" I'm not a toy, please, I'm fragile Is it a long cruel joke? Again, again Is this pretend...
A name etched on my bones A silvery whisper of a hope A laugh that beats to the song in my heart Haunted by such beautiful brown Pulled in by the waves of love Gravitating towards your soul Oh, my Well aren't I a sucker for fairytales
I'll never mean anything to anyone other than a plaything. Love me for a while but toss me aside easily when others come by. Dress me up and take me out But I'll never even be a favourite toy Hide me and barely acknowledge my existence to the world Like a college kid with his favourite teddy in his dorm I'll always watch over you even when you decide to throw me out